Well, sweetie, you know, human sexuality is complicated. And sometimes desire can be, you know, counter-intuitive. You know, for example, because a woman's sexual responsiveness is internalized, sometimes it's exciting for us to see responsiveness externalized, like with a... Like with a penis.
I'm not saying that, you know,I think that higher learning uniformly blows. You know, I think college is great for some people. Joni, I'm sure you're going to love it. But just... I'm a doer. That's how I learn. Which is probably why I'm in the food services industry.
I know that I don't have much credibility right now, but I really, really care about you. And I wanna know that I'm gonna be able to see you again someday. I mean, I... Do you think that could ever happen?
I need to say something.It's no big secret that your mom and I are in hell right now, and... Bottom line is, marriage is hard. It's really fucking hard. Just two people slogging through the shit, year after year, getting older, changing. It's a fucking marathon, okay? So, sometimes, you know, you're together so long that you just... You stop seeing the other person. You just see weird projections of your own junk. Instead of talking to each other, you go off the rails and act grubby and make stupid choices which is what I did. And I feel sick about it because I love you guys, and I love your mom, and that's the truth. Sometimes you hurt the ones you love the most. I don't know why. You know, if I read more Russian novel, then...Anyway...I just wanted to say how sorry I am for what I did. I hope you will forgive me eventually. Thank you.